Brain update

it's been awhile.

i guess i'm not doing very well, im not evn really sure right now.
This has never happened before, i've never been so mean to you (in my head) and so annoyed by you. what is going on? why is this happening? it's very.. not good.

i deleted your number, finally, the other night. it was a good move on my part.
i should probably delete some others from my phone but your absense will be fine for now.

everyone annoys me alot and disgusts me alot.

i think i bore everyone i know. horrible thoughts go thru my head a lot and i get controllably sad (i cant spell, i dont feel like fuckin spell checking right now either so fuck it!)and i dont talk.
i talk a lot less than i use to. a lottttt less. enough that i can tell. it's not like i even use to talk alot.
i cant kill myself, i dont even feel motivation to, not even sure if you need motivation to do that.

i guess i'm done with this post. it's nothing like i wanted it to be but thats how it always is