Stupid thoughts.

My brain is still healing. I think it isnt healing correctly though. It must not be since it keeps getting all smashed up again.
When you are born, you are born with a broken brain, hence why your skull has holes (duh!). as you grow up, you brain starts to heal, everyone confuses it with 'growing up' but whatever. every time you get hurt or something bad happens, your brain gets a little mashed up again. bits of the hard brain from when you were almost healed are left, which is why going thru hard times makes you smarter/braver... or it just breaks you completely. breaks you so bad your brain can never heal.

so
my girlfriend got drunk and made out with some girl and it's bothering me now.
i know it's nothing personal but i'm making it personal.
she cant handle my depression. the thing that consumes my mind the most. she cant deal with it. i dont blame her. i would get out.

i dont know why i'm getting worse. maybe because i think about it too much, maybe its the people involvement, maybe maybe maybe.

Things aren't going well in my brain. I dont know what is wrong. bad thoughts are surging thru my head. brain storming. I need self-confidence or else i will get nowhere in this world. FUCK. i need to stop with this.

click it

Nothing is ever right. Why?

why am i brain storming for The Perfect Suicide Note?
Why? what is the point of this...? I dont plan on leaving yet. I cant. She started to cry when we were talking about it, i cant do that to her.
everything is going well. i should be happy and i slightly am happy. something is off..... something is always off.
......

im digging my brain into a hole.
deeeeeeeeppppp