Oh the dazey days

i realize how shitty of a person i am becoming. i say things that dont need to be said, things that my opinion was never asked but i say it anyways. im shitty.

i'm realizing how pathetic i am and how i probably need some help.
everything i do is pathetic.
everythinggggg. i didnt know it was possible but it is.
im pretty sure it is.

pathetic list:
i cant take good pictures anymore
i cut myself alot for stupid reasons
i cry when i think about how i dont want to live my life because...
.... i'm afraid i won't live up to how good i could be
im going to fail in life, i can just feel it. that thought has always been around. i dont understand it at all.
but i know im going to end up alone in life, patheticccccc.
i'm going to end up alone.

oh fuckin well.
i just want to get fucked up or cuddle.

i cant even cuddle with people without feeling pathetic.

FFUUCCCKKKK!!!!!!!!!!