Massacre

The best yet the complete Worst of times

Oh cool!

last night sucked, today sucks, life sucks, this summer is going to suck.

i get the pleasure of going to summer school. JOYOUS!
yay for failing at everything. fhhhuuuuccckkk

hurt myself last night while people were over. yay me. -_-

brain update

my thoughts feel limited. it's very weird feeling and i cant say i've ever had this happen before. well....maybe but i dont remember it that well. it feels like there is a plastic wall surronding my brain, it doesnt let thoughts out, just little glimpses of what could be thought in depth.
and the thoughts that i am allowed to think are not very good ones. i want to solve my problems and there seems to be only one solution. the final solution.
i'm tired of being me. i'm tired of knowing im not good enough. i'm tired of being depressed. i'm tired of living. i'm tired of thinking. i'm tired of thinking. i'm tired of thinking. i'm tired of thinking. I'M TIRED OF THINKING!!!!! ugh!
and here are the thoughts that are taking over

-the fact that i'm only 17 and that i am not good enough
-the possible solution to my problems
-my girlfriend is on my mind alot
-how much i suck at photography
-the fact that im failing at everything

I WHINE TOO FUCKING MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dont know why i bother to type this. you dont want to read this shit. maybe you do, so you can make fun of me. maybe.....

oh well.
i have't hurt myself since 5/27/2009
and i dont really remember the reason why but im afraid of the possible reason why....


oh and i might not graduate next year. fuck my life.